those words are from slutstacie and pretty much tell how she feels about pain and rough sex.
one of the things slutstacie is is a pain slut. she loves pain; loves it. one of the series of pics here shows her showing off the bruises i put on her tits. she told me how much she loved looking at the bruises everyday and called them "a reminder of the sweet pain you gave me". she's told me how, after a good assfucking or a gangbang she'll rock back and forth in her chair so she can better feel the burning pain in her ass... the pain of being used.
this is the transcript of a chat slutstacie and i recently had.
M (8:15:27): btw... when I rolled on top of you, you moaned... knew what I was gonna do...
M (8:16:09): love how you relax, roll your hips so your ass is up for me...
M (8:17:52): loved pushing into you slowly... feeling your ass just .... yield... to me... love the way you moan.. how your body feels as I get deeper and deeper into you
M (8:17:56): btw... when I rolled on top of you, you moaned... knew what I was gonna do...
M (8:29:12): loved slowly pushing into you... feeling you -will- your asshole to relax, to open up to me...
M (8:30:19): slowly, deliberately, lazily stroking in and out of you... hearing you moan softly under me...
M (8:31:37): until finally I came then pushed deep into you... we laid there together... my cum deep in your bowels... your asshole still stretched around my cock.... Your cunt no doiubt wet...
M (8:34:14): did you cum when you felt my hot cum in you love? me on top of you, enveloping you... our faces so close, breathing each others breaths... so right... Master & sub, Owner & owned, M & stacie .. man & wife, lover & loved
M (8:42:33): I want that. Want you. Want that life. Want to have you near me, all the time. Want to know I'm going to see you everyday. Want to know your love. Want to see you submit, kneel down, bend over, offer yourself to me. Want to be able to take you at any time, in any way, any where... not just to do the taking, but to see you glow in the giving, glow in the being taken, glow in being used by your Master. just as much baby? I want to be surprised when in the middle of our walk you kneel, unzip my pants and worship my cock, satisfying your own hunger and need... or bend over a strangers car and ask me to please fuck your ass ...
slutstacie (10:17:26): just read (and re-read) the way you fucked my ass this morning, and I LOVE IT. love the way you're laying on top of me, the way i knew what you were going to do and curve my ass up for you, the way i feel the full weight of you as you slowly and lazily fuck my ass. so intimate, so taken, so conscious of the feel of my ass yielding to the pressure of your cock as you push into me, and then the feel of your cock stroking back and forth inside my bowel, feeling your breath on my face, both breathing in unison, hot, heavy, moans escaping my mouth, aware of how wet my cunt is before i cum for your cock inside my ass, the feel of your hot cum inside me, and laying there underneath all your weight as your cock rests deep inside my ass after you've finished
M (10:18:43): mmmm instantly hard, lover
M (10:20:01): yes.... "so intimate"
slutstacie (10:21:29): these words come to mind as i think about how i'd feel during and after you fucking me like that: taken, excited, owned, loved, safe, used, where i belong, intimate, controlled, sated
M (10:22:06): mmm yes... all those sound right
slutstacie (10:22:26): home
M (10:22:27): esp loved...used...
M (10:22:30): yes
slutstacie (10:22:38): yes.
M (10:22:41): "right"
slutstacie (10:22:50): yes
slutstacie (10:23:08): (will you wake me like that many times lover?)
M (10:23:22): yes my love
slutstacie (10:23:39): that's much better than an alarm clock
M (10:24:48): oh yes... wonder what will go through your mind when the thing that wakes you up and the first thing you're aware if is me wetting your asshole with a wet finger??
M (10:27:04): some times, when we're just watching tv....
M (10:28:01): will you suck me hard, then slide your ass or cunt onto me and we just sit like that and watch tv? Maybe I'll feel you clenching your cunt or ass on me .....
M (10:28:50): want so much to be with you... close to you... all the time.... being in you gets me even closet to you
M (10:28:54): Closer
M (10:36:08): guess you're awful busy over there :-( here I am trying to get you hot so you'll want and want to be with me... and you're either working or freaking about being on your knees... or maybe on your knees, who knows....
M (10:36:51): Did bf fuck your ass this weekend? Of has it been awhile since your anal need/hunger has been satisfied?
slutstacie (10:47:02): hi baby, sorry, L was here (hate when she walks in when u have your cock in my ass)
slutstacie (10:47:07): but i also like it ;)
M (10:47:18): :-)
M (10:47:29): with any luck baby?
M (10:48:19): someday she -will- walk in on us when I have my cock in your ass... you bent over your desk, grunting and moaning.... you look up at her....
slutstacie (10:49:33): wonder what will go through your mind when the thing that wakes you up and the first thing you're aware if is me wetting your asshole with a wet finger?.... mmmmm, many things. i'll be wondering what's in store, if its a leisurely ass fuck or something more ?brutal?
M (10:49:53): mmmm "brutal" makes me hard
slutstacie (10:50:13): yeah, and me wet. you like that?
slutstacie (10:50:24): i want (need) you to be brutal with me
M (10:52:18): I know you do baby... I need it too.
M (10:53:07): a little while ago, before the ass fuck....
M (10:54:00): I was picturing you on the bed... me kneeling over you, my legs holding down your arms... and I was...
slutstacie (10:54:48): mmmmm, plunging your cock down my throat?
M (10:54:56): no
slutstacie (10:54:57): fucking my mouth and throat
slutstacie (10:55:01): no?
M (10:55:00): No
slutstacie (10:55:11): hmmmm,
M (11:10:52): (can't stop thinking about shoving my fist into your cunt)
slutstacie (11:14:30): mmmmm, your fist in my cunt. "shoving" - yes M. i want to sit up, pull my knees into my chest and open my cunt for you
slutstacie (11:14:33): give my cunt to you
M (11:14:41): mmmmm
slutstacie (11:14:49): will you punch my cunt with your fist?
M (11:16:11): want me to take it like that before I ever finger, taste, fuck or even see it?
M (11:16:14): mmmmm
slutstacie (11:16:42): don't know
M (11:16:44): do you want me to punch your cunt? To punch you in the cunt?
slutstacie (11:17:12): yes. do you want to?
slutstacie (11:17:50): part of me says yes, i do want that the first time, then other parts not sure
M (11:17:54): yes. Do you want me to punch your cunt just to hurt it or to punch and go into it?
slutstacie (11:18:54): when your fist is inside my cunt, fuck me with ur fist, punch my cunt with ur fist. y aknow?
M (11:19:06): I like the idea (for first time) of spanking you hard (the spanking you still deserve), then bendiing you over, wetting my cock in our cunt, then taking your ass, HARD
M (11:19:30): I know. And okay :-) can't wait
M (11:20:25): you -need- and want a LOT of pain, don't you?
M (11:20:35): more than you thought.
slutstacie (11:20:49): i like that idea too. im also not sure i want to plan it all out. i just kinda want to see what happens, how we are naturlally, ya knwo?
slutstacie (11:21:02): y. but not all the time. i do like thing without pain too :)
M (11:21:33): how's this make you feel, baby? ...."would you like to be tortured?"
M (11:22:21): I know. but I think as you started getting/tasting pain, you realized that you want it much more and much harder than you thought you did...
M (11:25:48): "naturally" .... I know what you mean... But since we'll be coming together for always being apart... I'll be tentative and hold back until you've made it clear where we are, ya know? I can't ?take the chance? of being assertive, taking control, doing what we both think is natural, and then having you pull back or run or lock up or be pissed at me because you weren't ready and I thought you were. didnt come out right but I think you know what i mean
slutstacie (11:29:40): yes, i know what you mean. i'd like to see where we both progress though. and to remember although we've talked and fucked many times, it's still our first time and we need to learn each other ,ya know?
slutstacie (11:30:36): how's this make you feel, baby? ...."would you like to be tortured?" - mmm, the instantly makes me wet. and scared, and excited, and scream to myself YES YES YES i want to be tortured
M (11:33:23): I would like to torture you, my love. Spend an hour, a few hours, a day, a night, a weekend causing you nonMexual (although some of it will be directed at your sex and tits), exquisite, overwhelming pain
M (11:35:53): baby?
slutstacie (11:36:43): all i mean is simply that we don't have a plan, something we want to accomplish sexually. let's start as a man and woman and see where we go. when people fuck for first time/s, they just take it naturally. i almost want to fuck, etc without the pain and stuff we're talking about first, and just progress naturally as we learn each other. ya know?
M (11:36:46): Would you like to come out of a hour/day/weekend bruised, battered, hurting, sore, beaten, exhausted?
M (11:37:14): besides how much I want to do that, I also look forward to then nursing you...
slutstacie (11:37:17): yes. yes. yes. yes
M (11:38:05): you've said that before. and I agree both ways
slutstacie (11:38:03): causing you nonMexual (although some of it will be directed at your sex and tits), exquisite, overwhelming pain - mmmm. love? this -is- sexual. the pain you give me -is- sexual to me.
slutstacie (11:40:13): and just progress naturally as we learn each other. ya know? - will we progress very rapidly? absolutey. we know so many things about each other and what we want, so it'll flow and progress very quickly and naturally, ya know?
M (11:40:49): I know that. but the torture will not be given with the intent of giving you pleasurable pain... the purpose will be to HURT you. To make you hurt, to be scared for your life. To need time to heal. To (with permission and within some limits) harm your body. To make you want to use your safeword, only to realize that there is NO safeword to get out of this
slutstacie (11:41:51): yes. .... baby? no safeword?
M (11:41:58): re progress rapidly - yes, I know. Once we start, we'll be a runaway freight train. Sexually, emotionally, in our partnership, all ways
slutstacie (11:42:14): yes baby.
slutstacie (11:42:29): (that was to progress rapidly - runaway freight train)
M (11:42:30): does that scare you love? no safeword?
slutstacie (11:42:48): oh! i like your hair baby. you did it nicely :) (my sexy baby)
slutstacie (11:43:28): y. and, i wonder why wouldn't have one. i don't think i'd use it. but, almost need to have it if i'm unable to get out of the situation myself physicially, ya know?
M (11:43:41): love? TORTURE. not play, not good pain. TORTURE. you will need to know that this is different, thy you can't make it stop when you want to.
slutstacie (11:44:13): i understand that
M (11:44:20): btw, not Met- on the torture plan, no safeword, etc.... just what hits me as thinking about it
M (11:44:26): want to back out?
slutstacie (11:44:33): back out of what?
M (11:44:44): being tortured at my hand
M (11:46:02): (I suspect, despite the speeding freight train that we're a long way from torture... much pain and learning between here and there)
slutstacie (11:46:07): n. would want a safeword though. a safeword allows me to go far beyond my limits (or what i know to be them). without one, i suspect i'd have ill feelings towards you or something. don't know.
slutstacie (11:46:33): much pain and learning between here and there) - yes. and trust
slutstacie (12:14:21): i want (so much) for you to torture me. i also want no safe word. to be COMPLETELY in your hands with all control in your hands
M (12:14:26): I long to stand next to you
M (12:14:38): mmm. Really love?
slutstacie (12:14:44): :) m2 b. "stand next to you". i like that
slutstacie (12:15:12): yes, i do want that M, to be tortured with no safe word. getting there will take experience w/ each other and learning
slutstacie (12:15:49): i want to give you ALL of me and give you ALL power of me. to be completely in your control with no way out until you say so, even though that's not the purpose of it, but it gets my cunt throbbing
M (12:16:21): yes. much. both a rush to get there, to experience it (the pain, the brutality and the level of trust and commitment) and, no hurry. Much to do between us
M (12:16:51): like making your cunt throb, my love
slutstacie (12:18:29): yes, no hurry is right. the journey to get there will be so full. not even sure that's a "goal", ya know?
M (12:19:58): I know. nice to get there, exciting to see how far we can go.... but still.... don't want to bypass anything just to get there sooner...
slutstacie (12:20:16): oh, that slate top table u sent earlier - wow. i love that
M (12:21:08): yeah? :-) M2. If there was a way, i'd've bought it. You'd look Mo- good tied to it
slutstacie (12:21:37): don't want to bypass anything just to get there sooner... yes, cuz it's not a goal, ya know?
M (12:22:06): yes. something we'd like to try if/when we get there
slutstacie (12:22:34): yeah? M2. If there was a way, i'd've bought it. You'd look Mo- good tied to it - yessss :D :D would LOVE for you to tie me to it
slutstacie (12:26:32): yes. something we'd like to try if/when we get there - baby, i'm not pushing that off or anything. i just don't want it to be a goal, ya know? cuz then maybe too much focus would be on that and we have so much more to enjoy. SOOOO much more. i think one day we may just "find" that we're there, and be pleasantly surprised. ya know?
M (12:26:57): I know what you mean love
M (12:28:53): theres so much for us to do before we're even ready for that... so much pleasure for is to share, so much pain for me to give you, so much submission for you to give to me,
slutstacie (12:30:31): yes. and so much learning and so many experiences.
slutstacie (12:33:57): imagine the sex we'll have after we push each others buttons or have a disagreement :D
M (12:34:11): no kidding!
M (12:35:29): "the couch"? Or was it "in the kitchen"?
slutstacie (12:35:53): mmmm, yes. kitchen :)
slutstacie (12:37:42): i wonder what it'll feel like for you after we have a disagreement and with how strong i am you sometimes feel shut down, and then for you to be able to just come over to me and TAKE me. show me you have control over me, that you OWN me.
M (12:38:01): mmmm indescribeable
M (12:38:58): how will you feel to have been so strong and then to be -taken- with no heed or regard for you... just Me taking what is mine and using it as I see fit
M (12:40:04): the struggle in your head to be strong vs to be owned, to make your holes, your body always available for My use?
slutstacie (12:40:45): im writing that. but i writing that before you asked me whtat it'll feel like for me
M (12:40:57): :-) k
slutstacie (12:41:18): but, think i'm gonna wanna talk it instead. easier, ya know? have writtein a couple paras so far but will talk it in a few at lunch.
M (12:42:36): Ok. Trying to pee with a hard on ;-) need your hand and your mouth. you holding my cock directing my piss into your mouth
slutstacie (12:44:18): mmmmmmm, yes M
M (12:49:53): (I can't wait to wipe your shit off my cock)
M (12:50:45): (or to make you do it)
M (13:57:47): I want you so much stace... you make me crazy with lust, desire, anticipation
M (13:58:58): you also make me feel so wanted and so loved that Im alternately scared, intrigued, in awe of what it will be like to have your full attention
slutstacie (14:11:04): hi baby
M (14:11:10): hi love
slutstacie (14:11:16): mmmmmm, m2 M. said so perfectly
slutstacie (14:12:46): i feel the same way: you make me crazy with lust, desire, anticipation...ou also make me feel so wanted and so loved that Im alternately scared, intrigued, in awe of what it will be like to have you full time
M (14:15:37): Did bf fuck your ass this weekend? Or has it been a while since your anal need/hunger has been fed?
slutstacie (14:16:06): no, he didn't. cunt only
M (14:16:17): and mouth ;-)
slutstacie (14:16:27): yes
M (14:17:04): can I ask when was last time your ass was fucked? (wrote "taken" but that might mean a different answer to you)
slutstacie (14:18:36): last weekend i think. maybe a little before
M (14:19:01): when you were still sick?
M (14:19:08): what a trooper you are
M (14:19:14): and anal slut
slutstacie (14:19:25): no wait, before then
M (14:19:38): even so, it's not often enough, is it?
slutstacie (14:19:49): (i don't know time baby. when did i wear ur red shirt and skirt?)
slutstacie (14:19:56): no, not often enough
M (14:20:04): the wknd before
slutstacie (14:20:20): no often enough
M (14:20:51): did he fuck your ass in that? Or did you fuck your ass on his cock in the red?
slutstacie (14:21:21): he fucked my ass in it
M (14:21:25): :-)
M (14:21:35): home?
M (14:21:48): before going out or after?
slutstacie (14:22:54): after i think (i don't really remember baby)
M (14:23:24): I hope I fuck your ass often enough to keep it happy
slutstacie (14:23:36): m2
slutstacie (14:23:40): i'm sure u will
slutstacie (14:24:02): i think u like fucking my ass as muhc as i like having it fucked.
M (14:24:51): well, I know I'll love fucking it.... but "as much" as you like getting assfucked? dunno baby.... you REALLY love it
M (14:24:55): Don't you?
slutstacie (14:25:21): so u don't like it a lot?
M (14:25:37): ??? I LOVE IT !!!
slutstacie (14:26:07): yes, i really love it
M (14:27:44): I can't wait... CAN'T WAIT to fuck your ass my love... CAN'T WAIT. can't wait to stretch your asshole with my cock.. fuck your ass with just the first couple of inches of my cock... plunge hard into you... roll you over, put your legs over my shoulder and fuck it again
slutstacie (14:28:11): mmm, m2
M (14:31:14): I want to lick, finger, fuck, stretch, fist your asshole love. Do you know that? I want to put things in it. I want to have two cocks in your ass at re same time. I want 3 or 4 or 5 of us to take turns fucking only your ass - a couple minutes of striking your ass then "next" and repeat.... I want entire weekends of ONLY fucking your ass baby... I want to fuck your asshole hard, then grab your hair and make you suck me clean just so I can fuck your ass again and make you suck me clean again
M (14:31:56): I WANT YOUR ASSHOLE STRETCHED AROUND MY COCK
slutstacie (14:32:35): mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. m2. ALL of that
M (14:32:52): I want to rape your ass, to take it so hard you scream in pain, cry, shriek, struggle to get away from it... I want to make you cum repeatedly from fucking our ass
slutstacie (14:32:53): I want to fuck your asshole hard, then grab your hair and make you suck me clean just so I can fuck your ass again and make you suck me clean again - g-d yes.
M (14:34:12): you love that, don't you?
M (14:37:23): I'll bet you love knowing that the cock that's going into your mouth just came out of your ass.... I'll bet you love it (and your cunt even twitches) when you see, as you're opening your mouth to suck on that cock, that it's a little dirty... but that you're such a slut and especially an assMlut, that it just makes you hotter...
slutstacie (14:37:51): oh g-d M, yes - i want that. i want you to rape my ass and make me struggle and cry and scream in pain. will you feel the power u have as i try to struggle and get away from the pain but can't and i continue to scream and cry as you continue to hold me there brutally taking my ass?
M (14:38:17): oh yes, baby... oh g-d yes
M (14:38:53): mmmm brutally taking your ass .... yesyesyes
M (14:39:59): I'd like to rape and fuck your ass so hard that you continue to cry and son the whole time... even when your body belies your pain and shakes in orgasm
slutstacie (14:40:11): good. i want you to feel the power you have over me. and i want it to wash over you again, even after you already have me held down, but when i struggle but can't get away, i want you to be overcome with the feelings of power again as you impale my ass and hear me scream
M (14:40:35): mmm impale your ass .... yes
slutstacie (14:41:28): mmmmm, yes baby. YES. i'll sob the whole time from the pain and force and brutality of you raping my ass even while my trembles from cumming over and over again
M (14:41:57): that will be a tremendous rush of power.... followed by even more power as, after I pull out and tell you I'm done, that you get down on your knees, still crying and sobbing, and start licking me clean, thanking me
slutstacie (14:42:29): that you get down on your knees, still crying and sobbing, and start licking me clean, thanking me...
- mmmmmmm yes baby. yes.
slutstacie (14:43:09): i WILL thank you. even while still sobbing, i will thank you
M (14:43:14): :-)
slutstacie (14:43:49): i NEED you to rape my ass M, to take me brutally like that, to hurt me, to control me, to make me sob.
slutstacie (14:43:53): do you need that too?
M (14:43:57): yes. and the next day, every time you feel the pain in our ass, you'll remember how your Master, Owner, lover took your ass
slutstacie (14:44:41): oh yes, it will be a sweet reminder that i am owned and my Master/Owner/lover took my ass
M (14:45:01): I -DO- love... g-d, I do.... I want, WANT to hurt you by fucking your ass... WANT to hear your cries, screms, sobs and cums
slutstacie (14:45:19): :) good, cuz i need that
M (14:45:22): I can't wait
M (14:45:29): I know you do my love
M (14:46:01): your Master/Owner/lover fucked the ass that He owns
slutstacie (14:47:47): yes. that belongs to Him
M (14:49:35): are you looking forward to getting your ass fucked by me on a regular (constant) basis
M (14:49:50): I'm ready my love
slutstacie (14:54:41): gotta pottie, brb (my cunt is so wet from you brutally taking my ass). will you like to make me cum from fucking my ass like that? brb baby
M (14:57:11): oh yes my love. I can't wait to make you cum despite the pain... to show you what a slut you and your body truly are - that even with the pain, you feed on the sex of it... I also (very much) want to make you cum while you're sobbing uncontrollably from the spanking I'm giving you.... or hear you cum through your screams as I whip your back and ass
slutstacie (14:58:11): back
slutstacie (14:59:17): while you're sobbing uncontrollably from the spanking I'm giving you.... or hear you cum through your screams as I whip your back and ass - mmmm, yes M. i will feed on the pain you give me. Your pain
M (14:59:36): "back"... you get on yours, lift and spread your legs
slutstacie (14:59:55): yes Master
M (15:00:10): or maybe -I'll- get on your back
slutstacie (15:00:22): mmmmm
M (15:00:56): you're hungry for some pain right now, aren't you? Not just fucking or sex or cock.... but you want -pain-
M (15:01:13): you want to be hurt, now
slutstacie (15:04:12): yes. i want you to inflict pain on me. i want you to see and feel how wet my cunt gets with each sharp snap of your belt, or sting from your hand, or burning pain as you force my ass open with your cock
slutstacie (15:05:00): i like pain incorporated in sex. i do love pain baby. have to say i haven't experimented much pain outside of tied in to sex though
slutstacie (15:05:22): curious if i'll like/need it as much. suspect i will, but haven't had much pain in a stand alone state, know what i mean?
M (15:05:48): mmm I know that my love... and you -want/need- some now, at 405 on Monday afternoon, don't you?
M (15:05:52): nor have I
slutstacie (15:06:31): 405 monday, yes. YES
M (15:06:55): Do you know how hot those words are? "I like pain incorporated into sex"
slutstacie (15:07:17): remember that vid on the site i gave u where she had clothespins on the backs of her arms, and he flicked them off with a belt?
M (15:07:21): Do you know how hot those words are? "I like pain incorporated into sex"
slutstacie (15:07:22): g-d, that must hurt
M (15:07:30): yes :-)
slutstacie (15:07:38): Do you know how hot those words are? yeah?
M (15:12:42): baby?
M (15:13:32): how can pain be such an integral part of our sex & our love? It's so ..... strange, and yet so natural
slutstacie (15:14:24): do u know i expect u to cause me pain even when we're fucking for the first time? i can't imagine it not being a part of that, of us.
slutstacie (15:14:54): making it? hmmmm :)
M (15:14:57): no, I can't either
M (15:15:39): "and baby when it comes to love, if it's not rough it isn't fun"
M (15:16:19): yes my love... making something that will (soon, I hope) cause you pain, with my own hands
M (15:36:01): want you so much stace
M (15:40:42): Fuck me stacie. let's start. spread your legs for me, spread your ads cheeks for me, open your mouth wide. give yourself to Me.
M (15:46:54): let Me have full, unhindered access to your holes, to your body, to your pleasure and your pain.